January 2011
18 posts
I haven’t felt like this in a while. And I don’t know where this sinking feeling came from. I’ve been riding such a high. Chasing things I never thought I could catch. Its unsettling how well things are going. I’m happy. I am. So I’m just going to bank on waking up having this all gone away. Because I’m fine. I’m happy. I’m good. Finally.
I don't want to do anything.
I don’t want to read. I don’t want to write papers. I don’t want to pretend like I care. I don’t to grow up. I want to be fun. I want to be exciting. I want to drink a lot of beer. I want to sit in my room and play guitar and listen to John Mayer all day. I want to go some where. I want to feel inspired. I want to feel like I’m doing something. I want to be happy. I...
and we are so fragile. our cracking bones make noise. and we are just breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.
Today was the longest day of my life.
And believe it or not its not because it was one of those days. It was a very good day. Which is a very good thing
I think I became fun.
Can't win
apparently trouble will find me anywhere,
Confession
I often look for inspiration in my own posts. Sounds conceded, well… it is, but I think sometimes I’m my own best pick me up.
Irony's a lot funnier when it shits on someone...
May this be the only slap in the face I receive for this.
Tonight, for the first time, I felt some kind of remorse. For the first time I realized I made a rash decision. Then I had a choice. I could sit here and drink, and be sad for what isn’t, and pray that I have what could have been. Or I could begin to accept what I have, and move with it. Learn from it. Grow from it. Yes, that stings, and yes, it makes me sad. But I made a decision. And I...
All that I know is I'm breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
9 hours. And I want out.
They switched around all the zodiac signs
Does this mean I have always had the personality of a pisces, and previous astrologist were just plain wrong when it came to assembling my personality and creating my future? Or, is this just further proof that relying on stars to predict our future love life is just plain bull shit? I’ll let you know when I figure it out.
Last night I dreamt that I was really angry. I was so beyond upset I was inconsolable, throwing punches, screaming at whoever was in the way to take it. That is until they called DJ Pauly D into the room. Now during my waking hours, I don’t spend much time, if any, thinking about Pauly D, so I was a hair caught off guard however, my dream self need all the help it could get…. Pauly...
“I pray that I could be brave enough to show you how easily I fall apart, but I...”